in a bit of a muddle today…
feeling a bit off – my system is rumbling and not happy, although maybe starting to settle down a bit
feeling a bit sad … Mansuetude’s post about ideas of ‘home’ . The thing I want most in the world, more than anything – a place to stop, a place where I don’t have to think about moving again – ever – someplace to finally feel like home. I’m so weary of moving. Trying not to spiral.
Listening to space music and this just came on …
mesmerizing
hmmm, weird spacing with the link.
back to work … many things to do, things to be done, things to be made, things, lots of things………
blessings – kvk
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30 September 2009 at 3:55 pm
nina
ok.
1. be grateful that you own your own home
2. be grateful that in this home, you are not alone
3. be grateful that your windows or doors have not been smashed to smithereens, that things have not been taken from you
4. be grateful that you don’t have to move. that you can paint your walls the colors you like. that you can add on or take off, if you so desire
5. be grateful that you made it to the place you wanted to be, this time last year
6. be grateful that you are who you are. adored, talented, loved.
i love you.x
30 September 2009 at 4:45 pm
Kathy Van Kleeck
I know I know I know – I have so much to be grateful for. And I honestly do go through each day giving thanks, especially for all the ways we’ve been blessed of late. It’s that ‘h’ word that sends me into a spiral and brings a lump to my throat and tears to my eyes. I know I am blessed and incredibly fortunate and have such an abundance of riches. It’s just been a weird day – maybe it’s hormones or planet alignment strangeness.
xxx
30 September 2009 at 5:59 pm
lynne
love to you, sweetie…
this grooveshark thing looks promising for songs with blog posts – i’m gonna investigate it. so far i’ve checked out a couple of services but they don’t offer just what i want.
i think there are many days now when the energy is whirling so much it’s hard to hold on; hard to assimilate the changes… be easy on yourself (ha! this is me talkin’ to me!)… it’s okay to want a home… it’s all okay…
xo
1 October 2009 at 2:00 pm
Kathy Van Kleeck
Yeah, I’m likin’ that grooveshark thing. Only spent a few minutes there, but it’s got potential.
“energy is whirling so much it’s hard to hold on” – in a nutshell……
I just want to find my way to being okay with my physical location for the next 3 or so years … some way so that the big ass trucks thundering around my corner and penned up skinny dogs barking non-stop and ’slice of appalachia’ front yards roll right over me.
xxoo
30 September 2009 at 5:59 pm
mansuetude
I telling you, that Mansuetude’s blog has tear vibes built in it, i get a lot of that!!!
It follows me around since school.
People bring me tears in a bowl.
Seriously…
Did writing what you wrote in the comment open that for you?
One of our first convos here was about me packing to move and you saying something about moving like sixteen times and the Uhaul makes you cringe… (memory)! I think Home has two or three links, place on earth; literally a space you love
and hearts that know you
and then there is a soul line of power and energy some people MUST meet or feel lost forever…
Blessings… (and its important to honor that feeling, that is key to making it manifest its dream).
1 October 2009 at 2:06 pm
Kathy Van Kleeck
good memory! Heart felt musings on the concept of ‘home’ always get to me. Your ‘home links’ are dead on. The challenge now is to be okay where I physically am and continue to dream about the next stage, not from a sense of longing, but with a sense of building on a strong foundation.
thanks so much!
blessings to you as well
30 September 2009 at 6:02 pm
mansuetude
lynne and i hit send at the same second…
lynne who i have just been writing about over here… haha!